Should have known better than that

I'm an idiot. Seriously. Cause you know, being friends and all, I didn't think it would be a big deal. It's not like I have feelings for him or anything, I just hate that feeling of not being good enough. You know? And like, I over analyze things way too much, it's what I do. And so before, when I said he should go with Emily, and he was like no cause of Derek, not cause he wouldnt want to, but just cause there was someone else, you know. And so like, I just feel like she wouldve been good enough, but I'm not. And it's just a seriously lame feeling. I don't know.

And fuuudge, can I just say how annoying the whole prom thing is? I wish I wasn't expected to go. Seriously. I wish more people didn't go, so then I wouldn't feel like I'm supposed to. Or atleast I wish it wouldnt seem so weird to go without a date, cause seriously, it's dumb. You end up asking someone just cause you should, not because you really want to go with them. Cause to be perfectly honest, if it wouldnt be so lame, I wouldn't mind going by myself.