"Blow my heart up"

I don't feel like writing the positives and negatives today.

I haven't felt sad in a while. I don't even know how long. Angry and annoyed yeah, but not sad. It's really weird. It's been like atleast a month since I've been for real sad. And it sucks. And it's dumb. It's like, I don't want to believe things are always going to be weird, but it seems like they are. And I want to think that the past is the past and it doesn't matter, but I feel like it still does. Like, it's something I can't fix no matter how much I'd like to. I wish I could just like erase it. But it's impossible. And it just makes me sad, really sad.

Tonight was lame, I was getting annoyed by things so easily.
Getting to know people you dont know well is pretty fun.
Im still sick of school, and homework, and not sleeping as much.
I still care a rediculous amount more than I should.
I wish people would just be more considerate sometimes.